Going through a stage…

Me I mean. I’m going through a stage. Maybe it’s just the end of the winter duldrums. Maybe it’s just feeling overwhelmed with all of the stuff I have to do in the next two months including the taxes and making a first communion dress. I am feeling burned out, dried up, worn to a frazzle. I was trying to remember the last break I had completely from homeschooling, housework, medical transcription and everything else and determined that it was when I had my Cesarean 21 months ago!

And even that didn’t last too long. I was just starting with a new transcription service and trying to prove myself. Within two weeks I was sitting with a heating pad over my incision transcribing. Within four weeks I was covering for another transcriptionist who needed a break for a month! Looking back I must have been out of mind.

I am also concerned about my mother. Her new oncologist says that her myeloma is more active now. He wants to start her on chemotherapy. Now, myeloma on its own decreases the immune system. The chemo drugs depresses them further. I just somehow can’t see the point in making a nice lady who is almost 80 years old spend the rest of her life going through all of the discomforts of chemo as well as avoiding her friends, activities and grandchildren so that she doesn’t catch another nasty bout of pneumonia! So I am going to her oncology appointment on Friday to talk to him and try to get the true scoop of what is going on with her.

Frankie concerns me. So many people want her to be healthy and well. It’s so terrible that she is suffering so. Every day I read her mom’s updates and just hope that it’s going to be a good day. It seems that recently most of them have not.

And then there is this high school decision to make. In my town, it appears that starting high school is almost an irrevocable decision. They do not take students into this school after ninth grade. I guess I would feel better about it if Sam could maybe homeschool two more years and then transfer in but they don’t. I’m hoping that maybe God will give me a peak at the plan so that I will know better how to proceed.

So that’s it. Not a very long or interesting post. I’m buried under work and while that is around even blogging feels burdensome. Yet somehow even that feels apropriate for these last days of lent.

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