When God Closes a Door He Opens a Window but…

why does He keep smashing my fingers in the door frame?!!


Last March or so, a long time customer of mine dropped her business with me from around $800 a month to about $12.00. I was a little panicked, but unfortunately this was not the first time this had happened. Back in 1999 this client had also suddenly and without warning dropped way back on business, but I faithfully and continuously made the 36 mile round trip to pick up and deliver work twice a week. Many times I did this with babies and/or toddlers in the car. Many times I made that trip through very tense driving conditions. But business picked back up, and I took that to be the reward for my faithfulness.


But last year, I was very pregnant. And I was tired. And gas prices were soaring. And I was tired of this stupid game. But… stupid me, I would not be the one to flinch or jump ship. I kept making the trip out there even though at some point it was costing me more to do business with this client than I was actually making.


Finally about 3 weeks before my baby was due, this client wrote me a note in with my $12.00 check and told me I didn’t need to come out any more, and that I should feel free to find another client. I was free!! But I hadn’t set myself free – I was kind of sad about the whole thing.


But luckily another job was waiting for me and this one didn’t require any travelling. It was perfect for me as I got use to a new baby and recovered from my C-section.


So God was very good to me. He provided. What I have to understand about myself and try to change is my tendency to stay in a bad situation even when I know deep in my heart that it’s wrong for me. I’ve blogged before that I have a certain sense about these things. But I react rather senselessly anyway!


A similar thing happened again last week! I was in a situation where I just couldn’t make someone happy. Or at least that was my impression. I never got any positive feedback, but the one time I did get feedback it was negative. And while I was worrying and going through my usual angst over that type of problem, worrying about a problem I could do nothing about and not trusting – a better solution comes along!


When will I learn?